skater556's Journal

Subject:	I feel empty inside...
Time:	2:48 am.
Mood:	crushed.

Hey.. I know I have not updated in a while.. It's like 3:40 in the mourning and I can't sleep. Alauren and I broke up.. I feel empty inside now. I wish things were different.. I loved her so much, why did any of this have to happen.. And I know I am never going to get anouther chance with her, because she likes some one else. I don't know what to do. I can't sleep... I can't concentrate. I just don't know. I would ask her back out, but I know she would say no, She likes some one else now. I don't care what any one else thinks any more, they can all go fuck there selfs, they say I am to forgiving for taking her back all the other times.. well I can't help it. I love her and I think I alway's will. I just wished she still felt the same. The 8th grade farewell dance is coming up soon.. I don't think I am going to go unless some thing happens and she is there with me. I keep thinking in my head all the stuff I could have done or said, or how I could have been better and made her happier. I keep feeling like a part of me is gone now, and I would do almost any thing to get it back. I feel like me and her are meant to be. Wow... I must sound really pathetic.. but it's all true. She probably hates me now.. I wish things were different.. I really do.

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